Analyze That!

[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0830
Roger's Office
Meropis 

Another mission had gone by. Bodies had been sent back through the 'Gate for their families to claim. The missing were still being looked for, but it didn't look hopeful. He'd saved some lives, as had Dr. West, but not enough. There were never enough, though, were there? Since he couldn't save them all...well. He never could, could he?! He could live a million years and never save them all. He would need his OWN session soon, but he found solace in the sessions where he helped the team. It helped HIM to put his own problems in perspective-he could help the lives he HAD saved, at least. He could help them to overcome. There were losses this time; losses that even HE couldn't have done anything about. Hopper had chosen to behave "heroically." Some might call it stupidly. Roger wasn't sure of which. But in case someone needed to talk about it, or anything related to it, he was here. That was what he DID, after all. 

He sighed, and got his things together for the first appointment of the day. These weren't as structred as the last-these were "first-come, first-served," but he had cleared his whole day. There were ones he was hoping to see-Dr. Black, for sure, and the Earth team, again. But also the General, and Captain Miller this time-maybe even Fiona, and the rest of the science team. The ones who had SEEN the violence. The ones he wanted to protect the most, but the ones he thought might be strongest...he wasn't sure yet. 

He opened the door, and waited. The email he'd issued to the entire base had said to simply show up at 0830, make a line, and sign in. He'd do the rest. He let the first one in. So it began. 

Tag:@whomever needs to chat/nap/cry/whatevs. No judgements. 

[Fiona Maccafferty]

We didn't start the fire/it was always burning since the world's been turning ,

No we didn't light it but we tried to fight it

0830
Roger's Office
Meropis 

Fiona had made sure she was the first one there. She usually had a standing weekly appointment with the Doc, but she'd had to reschedule her last because of the damage to the system that Dorane had caused. Now, though, she had some more pressing things to think about. She knocked once, and Dr. Harrison told her to come in, and she did. She took her usual spot, Indian style in the large orange chair. She sighed deeply. 

Thanks for seeing me today. I am sorry for the other day. I had a bunch of work to do. I did my journaling for next session. But today I want to discuss somethings that have come up...you know how difficult interpersonal relationships are for me, for various reasons. But I find myself a little...bolloxed....um. Well, I found that I've had feelings that I SHOULDN'T for one of the fellow scientists, and you know about my strange interest in the General. She paused. She and Doctor Harrison had been discussing her misplaced feelings for much older men, particularly those she saw as "safe", mostly due to unresolved issues with her father and his control over her life, but also because the cop who had "saved" her following her assault was a kind, older man. It was natural, he said, for the brain to process this as a coping mechanism, and didn't necessarily mean that her feelings were romantic, but could be viewed as self-protecting...it made sense that she would seek out someone who could keep her safe. 

But...after the fallout with that...alien, I am concerned about ACTUAL romantic feelings for Dr. Black...which is bad, due to the fact that we work so closely together....right? She really WAS concerned about a conflict of interest here. 

OUTFIT: HERE , TAGGED:@roger , NOTES:ugh... , LYRICS: Billy Joel.

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[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0834
Roger's Office
Meropia

Roger was, by now, used to the strange schedules that everyone kept-some of them preferred nights, some days, and some of them, like himself, had to be ready to go at the drop of a hat. Just in case. So he wasn't surprised that his day was already filled. He was, however, a LITTLE surprised that Fiona was his first patient. He recognized her knocke-soft and tentative, as if she were interruppting some grand plan, instead of a man waiting to HELP her. He told her to come in, and observed her carefully. She carried herself a little higher these days-as if she were coming into herself or something. He wished he could see her feet-a lot could be seen in the muscles of the feet. It was easy to control one's facial and body language, but it was something else entirely to control the minute movements of the limbs in the face of grief, anger, or dishonesty. It was the truest of "tells," and he read tells. Oh, well. He'd have to hope that today went as it normally did-she calmed enough to reveal herself.

She started in as they usually did-thier first session had been him leading her, but after, she took over-she'd done "therapy" before, and while it hadn't "worked," she was willing. He let her "word-vomit" as he had come to call Fiona's penchant for blurting things out. Not that he didn't appreciate the time this saved, but every once in awhile, he liked polite niceites to start his morning. He would have to suffice with sticking them into conversation.

It's nice to see you today, Fiona. It's OK that you rescheduled. I am glad you came to see me. So let's see. You're worried that you've transferred your percieved feelings for an inappropriate male to another, who is actually, in my opinion, a better fit for you?! The look she gave him didn't escape his notice, but he pressed on. Fiona's intellect sometimes stood in the way of her self-healing, and he needed to get her upset enough to tap into that. He went on.

I know that you want me to TELL you what to do, and how to do it, but then I would be taking on that role of your father, wouldn't I? And you're working to not have that controlling force in your life, Fee. Let's go back to our third session, when you had met with the General, and you started to develop the "feelings," as you put it, he said, making quotation signs in the air with his fingers, as she had. Let's say the world had gone crazy, and you were given an opportunity to ACT on those feelings. Is there an outcome that you can see? He paused for several moments to let her imagine this scenario. He also watched the emotions play across her face-guilt, fear, joy, respect. Interesting. He went on, pushing her a little further. Now imagine if you were someone else, maybe like a person who was a little more overt with their behavior. Imagine acting out in that way with Dr. Black. Whatever that scenario is for you. Go with it for a moment. Close your eyes if you need to-if you feel comfortable with that. He knew the story of her assault, and while he knew she trusted him, he never wanted to do anything to upset that trust. He watched as she closed her eyes, and the emotions that played now-more guilt, a little fear...and something else he didn't entireley recognize. He noted this, and then proceeded.

Now, let's come back to the now. You're your regular self. Remember those two feelings. Which feels more right to you? He could see her slowly getting a little irritated with his roundabout ways of questioning. He knew he had her now. And he knew she knew it. She smiled a tiny smile before she replied. He could ease up now, and he smiled back, lightly.

Because I think that's your answer, my dear.

Tag: me!

[Fiona Maccafferty]

0837
Roger's Office
Meropis

After she'd dumped her words onto the doctor, she settled back. Just getting it out had helped. Maybe she WAS doing better. She hadn't any panic attacks, and other than threatening to feed Glavish to the Koan, she also hadn't had any major temper flares. Sure, she was Irish, and female, but she was trying to control her anger outbursts better. It was unbecoming for her to operate on the fight or flight all the time. She listened to his replies. He was a smart man, but he had an irritating way of making his points.

It's nice to see you today, Fiona. It's OK that you rescheduled. I am glad you came to see me. So let's see. You're worried that you've transferred your percieved feelings for an inappropriate male to another, who is actually, in my opinion, a better fit for you?! She fixed him with her steeliest stare. How dare he?! Had she ASKED for his opinion? Oh, yeah...she had. Damn. She sighed, and nodded.

Yes. He took some notes, and then continued. They had a good rapport, and she trusted the Doctor. It was hard for her to give over absolute trust to a man, but Doc H wasn't a man. Well, he WAS but not THAT kind of man. She was glad he couldn't hear her.

I know that you want me to TELL you what to do, and how to do it, but then I would be taking on that role of your father, wouldn't I? And you're working to not have that controlling force in your life, Fee. Let's go back to our third session, when you had met with the General, and you started to develop the "feelings," as you put it,Let's say the world had gone crazy, and you were given an opportunity to ACT on those feelings. Is there an outcome that you can see? She thought about this for a moment. She let this scene play out. All she could see was one scene-she was a young widow. Well. That wasn't exactly good, was it?! She nodded to Roger, to let him know she had the vision. Now imagine if you were someone else, maybe like a person who was a little more overt with their behavior. Imagine acting out in that way with Dr. Black. Whatever that scenario is for you. Go with it for a moment. Close your eyes if you need to-if you feel comfortable with that. She took a breath, and shut her eyes. She couln't help but picture herself as Lt. Lefebvre. The woman would just DO it. She had a vision of herself, in this form, forcefully pushing Michael against his desk, and kissing him soundly. He returned...and then she let her mind go further...just a little. It went blank at the bedroom scene...she had no experiences to tell her how it SHOULD be, only how it shouldn't. Doc H brought her back to the present.

Now, let's come back to the now. You're your regular self. Remember those two feelings. Which feels more right to you? She sighed. SHe KNEW. He had her beat.

The second, Roger! Not that the first was TERRIBLE-it wasn't. It was just not...as well as the second. Gosh, did it have to be so diffficult for her?!

Because I think that's your answer, my dear. She nodded. She had her answer. She moved topics.

Aye. Now how do I tell him? Do I have to...do you think it's too fast? Roger smiled at her. She knew he was thinking of the best way to answer her-she appreciated that he never bullsh*tted her.

[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0839
Roger's Office
Meropis

Roger sat and watched Fee have her little exercise. She was so intelligent, smarter than him, but not in your face about it-if anything, it was the opposite, she tried to downplay it. Or at least she accepted it and made it fit into her life. At any rate, she was doing well today.

Yes...The second, Roger! Ah, there she was. Good girl, she'd brought herself to the "healing" place on her own. He knew she valued the truth, straightforward and simply. He let her finish her daydreams before he replied.

Yes, my dear. It's OK to feel these things-it makes you human. Fiona, I know that you feel this huge hole in your life from the things that have happened to you...most of them bitterly unfair for a child to deal with. But we can't our pasts, Fiona. We can only control how it affects our future. And you can choose a healthy one, or you can choose to fight it all your life. So far, you've been doing WELL, Fee. You're making choices on your own to not repeat the same mistakes that you hated as a child. You're learning to accept and appreciate your gifts. That's something that a lot of people don't do for years, if EVER. And you're not even thirty yet! So don't let one minor setback change all that. If it helps, we can figure out what about it you feel is misplaced, but I think it's the safety thing. And that's OK. You have people that will look out for you, and you read people well. So it's natural, and it's not anything to be ashamed of. Now, if you were acting on that, I would be more concerned. He let his thoughts out for her to hear, and paused while she took them in. He could see her thinking on them, and then he went on.

Aye. Now how do I tell him? Do I have to...do you think it's too fast? He smiled. In some ways, it MAY be. On the other hand, he was almost forty when he'd met and married Lucy, who was older herself, at 35. Fee was worried about appearances, he knew-children from broken homes usually WERE concerned about how they appeared to the outside world. For some, like Lt. Lefebvre, it took a literal turn, and thier bodies, and physical appearances had to be perfect. For Fee, it was more about looking mannered and maybe a bit more "American" than she was. Hiding the ugly through a facade was a common, and sometimes helpful (for children) coping mechanism. But now she was an adult.

No. I know you worry about the opinions of others, more than you like to admit. But two things have become crystal clear to me-one, most people aren't paying either YOU or Dr. Black too much mind. Secondly, you're not the official control of anyone. You're a civillian volunteer-just so long as you behave legally and responsibly, no one will care. And I am pretty sure that Dr. Black would be...amenable to something. Roger had been the first to look after him after his runin with Dorane. It was interesting to the Psychologist the things the mind let slip when one wasn't feeling well. Roger had HEARD the man's mumblings...and he'd be remiss to not admit he was rooting for the two scientists. At any rate, it would do them both a world of good.

Tag: me, one more time.

[Fiona Maccafferty]

0840
Roger's Office
Meropis

Fee was growing antsy-normally, she'd be fine with the hour-long sessions she NEEDED with Harrison, but now that she had "permission" to be a tiny bit reckless, she wanted to go find Michael. He'd been released from the infirmary, with the promise to the Docs that he'd take it easy. Fee did her best to monitor him, while still dealing with her own work and her stupid shadow in the form of Blueberry. THAT woman needed a pint of plain and a roll in the hay. Fiona had been tempted to assign Blue to assist Lt. Lefebvre and Captain Miller in the legal office, just so that the blonde woman would have a taste of her own medicine, and Blue wouldn't have anyone to harass, as Fee got the impression that Maggie would simply ignore Blue to do her own thing. However, she wasn't a hateful person by nature, so none of this had actually HAPPENED. It was just sweet revenge in her head.

Yes, my dear. It's OK to feel these things-it makes you human. Fiona, I know that you feel this huge hole in your life from the things that have happened to you...most of them bitterly unfair for a child to deal with. But we can't our pasts, Fiona. We can only control how it affects our future. And you can choose a healthy one, or you can choose to fight it all your life. So far, you've been doing WELL, Fee. You're making choices on your own to not repeat the same mistakes that you hated as a child. You're learning to accept and appreciate your gifts. That's something that a lot of people don't do for years, if EVER. And you're not even thirty yet! So don't let one minor setback change all that. If it helps, we can figure out what about it you feel is misplaced, but I think it's the safety thing. And that's OK. You have people that will look out for you, and you read people well. So it's natural, and it's not anything to be ashamed of. Now, if you were acting on that, I would be more concerned. She smiled a little. She'd always been good at controlling her actions, and her thoughts.

I still don't find it comfortable. Intimacy is scary still...I mean, I am getting BETTER, but...at least it's Michael, though.... She trailed off a little. He was smaller, like her (though still taller, as she was the shortest, smallest person on Meropis), but he was sweet and gentle, and she was pretty sure that once she told him her story, he would be even sweeter and gentler. He didn't seem the type that would even swat a fly if he could help it, and that was good. And of COURSE I wouldn't act on it; I don't want to go home yet. Even though she desperately missed her father, she was having a great experience, and learning a lot. And though she'd FANTAZISED about it, she was PRETTY sure that the General had a bit of sense and wouldn't allow it. He wouldn't be upset, of course, just...well. She wasn't going to even go there.

No. I know you worry about the opinions of others, more than you like to admit. But two things have become crystal clear to me-one, most people aren't paying either YOU or Dr. Black too much mind. Secondly, you're not the official control of anyone. You're a civillian volunteer-just so long as you behave legally and responsibly, no one will care. And I am pretty sure that Dr. Black would be...amenable to something. She raised an eyebrow. He was cheeky, that what he was. She nodded, though, her smile growing. Just as she'd been thinking. She stood.

If you don't mind, Doctor, I'd like to cut our session short, since I'll see you on Thursday anyway. He nodded and she left, nothing more to be said. She knew what the right answer was now. The only issue was the HOW, which she'd think on. Now, though, she needed tea and some alone time with the only thing that REALLY understood her besides the nerds-her computer.

Tag: Rog, and Liam Hart, if you're ready, so are we!

[Liam Hart]

0842
Roger's Office
Meropis

Liam never liked Psychologists or Psychiatrists not that there is much of a difference between the two except for the letters after the name. Liam doesn't like the talking about himself, its much harder to talk about yourself than it is to talk about someone else, especially the profiling to get in their heads to figure out where they might go, finding people was Liam's expertise. His own head especially in the last 7 years alone well that is a different story...

Liam saw a little woman leave the office and the door was open and Liam knocked on the door before walking in. "Good morning, Doctor. Special Agent Liam Hart, Air Force OSI, in case you didn't know who I was." Liam said as he walked in and took a seat in the psych chair...

<Tag: Dr. Roger Harrison>

[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0843
Roger's Office
Meropis

Roger finished his notes-and musing-about Fee and her problems when his door got a knock again. He opened a fresh page of his note book, and spoke.

Come in. He was standing at the desk, and he nodded once as a man entered. Roger watched how the man carried himself-confident, and with a bit of that swagger that only a young man had. Roger once had that-the knowledge that you had the world on a string. Then you got old and jaded...like himself. He indicated that the man should sit wherever he liked.

Good morning, Doctor. Special Agent Liam Hart, Air Force OSI, in case you didn't know who I was. Roger smiled lightly, crossed the room, and put out his hand for a handshake.

Only in name. It's good to meet you, Mister Hart. I am Doctor Roger Harrison. Before we start, would you like some coffee or tea? Some water? Roger had already poured himself his now-fourth cup of coffee. Lucy was going to have a FIT if he came back a caffiene addict. He figured it was safer than speed and certainly legal, and more socially acceptable than being a drunk. So coffee was his vice. Roger settled down-he forwent his white lab coat when he was shrinking, because he felt it was too clinical. Today he wore scrubs and a polo, with a pocket for his ever-necessary reading glasses and pen.

He spoke again, starting with his normal new-patient spiel.

Before we begin, I would like to tell you that what you tell me in here is private and personal. It will not leave this office, unless, of course, you tell me you're going to hurt yourself or someone else. Otherwise, the only thing that goes in your file is that you completed your yearly psych eval, all right?! Now, what brings you here today? He needed to come up with some funny way to say that-it was getting boring.

Tag:Liam Hart

[Liam Hart]

0843
Roger's Office
Meropis

Liam didn't know where to start or what to really say. Living in Iraq isn't easy especially in a relatively hostile area, if the US Military Base hadn't been so close, then Liam really may have been in trouble. After all he didn't exactly have enough gear to last had the terrorists decided to go through the house he was at or if they found out an American was living among them.

Only in name. It's good to meet you, Mister Hart. I am Doctor Roger Harrison. Before we start, would you like some coffee or tea? Some water? Liam shook his head, he was good, he had all needed.


Before we begin, I would like to tell you that what you tell me in here is private and personal. It will not leave this office, unless, of course, you tell me you're going to hurt yourself or someone else. Otherwise, the only thing that goes in your file is that you completed your yearly psych eval, all right?! Now, what brings you here today? Liam nodded before beginning.

"Understood Doctor. Before coming to Meropis the Secretary of the Air Force recommended I talk to a Psychologist, afterall living in Iraq isn't easy, especially since I wasn't a military man. Don't get me wrong I was in Iraq before and Afghanistan and in the most dangerous areas in the world with BORTAC, Border Patrol Tactical Unit, if you didn't know that." Liam began and paused to take a deep breath. "I guess being a Border Patrol Agent was the hardest thing I've done even more so than living in Iraq with human alien hybrids for over a year... although they were great people, very kind and selfless. Most of the time I dealt with normal people like you or I, trying to get into America to flee the violence that has been in Mexico for well since before I was born. Arresting families, processing them and sending them back home... I also had encounters with drug traffickers and coyotes who snuck people into America with no regards for the people. One night I was on patrol just me and my partner and we were driving our SUV patrolling the border and we encountered this one guy in the middle of the road carrying a duffel bag. We stopped him and searched the bag and sure enough it was drugs, we arrested him and I started to walk to the truck to put the evidence in the back of the truck and shots rang out and I took cover behind my truck and pulled out my pistol. I called it in and AK-47 shots kept ringing out, had to be about 50 times, and there were 3 shooters that came out of nowhere. They took the suspect and fled back to Mexico, I returned fire and well they were gone. I checked on my partner and he was just there laying in his own blood, dead, with dozens of gunshot wounds."

Liam stopped there and trying to compose himself but couldn't stop the tear coming from his eye, he held back the rest. "After that, I went into BORTAC, I was accepted and passed the course and doing that was much easier. We didn't deal with regular people trying to give themselves and their families a better life, nope we dealt with the drug cartels and terror organizations. I killed some people in my short tenure there, but I don't lose much sleep over that, it was me or them and I wasn't dying because of a scumbag. I almost got shot multiple times but I didn't and neither of my team members did either, which was definitely good. Air Force OSI was the best job I had so far, being a law grad I definitely had a weird professional life."

<Tag: Dr. Roger Harrison>

[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0843
Roger's Office
Meropis

Roger listened, intrigued. He liked to hear about the new people and their problems. It helped him to forget about the rest of the issues-like Fee and her crazy Irish temper, or Dr. Blacks pressing medical issues.

Understood Doctor. Before coming to Meropis the Secretary of the Air Force recommended I talk to a Psychologist, afterall living in Iraq isn't easy, especially since I wasn't a military man. Don't get me wrong I was in Iraq before and Afghanistan and in the most dangerous areas in the world with BORTAC, Border Patrol Tactical Unit, if you didn't know that.I guess being a Border Patrol Agent was the hardest thing I've done even more so than living in Iraq with human alien hybrids for over a year... although they were great people, very kind and selfless. Most of the time I dealt with normal people like you or I, trying to get into America to flee the violence that has been in Mexico for well since before I was born. Arresting families, processing them and sending them back home... I also had encounters with drug traffickers and coyotes who snuck people into America with no regards for the people. One night I was on patrol just me and my partner and we were driving our SUV patrolling the border and we encountered this one guy in the middle of the road carrying a duffel bag. We stopped him and searched the bag and sure enough it was drugs, we arrested him and I started to walk to the truck to put the evidence in the back of the truck and shots rang out and I took cover behind my truck and pulled out my pistol. I called it in and AK-47 shots kept ringing out, had to be about 50 times, and there were 3 shooters that came out of nowhere. They took the suspect and fled back to Mexico, I returned fire and well they were gone. I checked on my partner and he was just there laying in his own blood, dead, with dozens of gunshot wounds. Roger took in this information.

I could see why that would be concerning. What did you do after? How did you feel seeing your friend lying there? He didn't mean to ask so many lame questions, but he needed to get some background. Liam answered his question before he asked it, though.

After that, I went into BORTAC, I was accepted and passed the course and doing that was much easier. We didn't deal with regular people trying to give themselves and their families a better life, nope we dealt with the drug cartels and terror organizations. I killed some people in my short tenure there, but I don't lose much sleep over that, it was me or them and I wasn't dying because of a scumbag. I almost got shot multiple times but I didn't and neither of my team members did either, which was definitely good. Air Force OSI was the best job I had so far, being a law grad I definitely had a weird professional life. Roger nodded.

I can understand why you left. Tell me, what do you think of the general state of Meropis?! Anyone here you like or don't, particularly? Are you settling in well? You seem to have a good handle on things-yes, your carreer path hasn't been normal, but it doesn't need to be. So long as you're happy, or at least secure. Why did you choose the law-it seems to me that law ENFORCEMENT might've been a better fit? He always wondered why people had chosen the jobs they did.

Tag:Liam Hart.

[Liam Hart]

0844
Roger's Office
Meropis

I could see why that would be concerning. What did you do after? How did you feel seeing your friend lying there? Liam just shook his head.

"It was tough, I tried to do chest compression's but you know, he was shot a few dozen times too many, the only thing I was doing was getting the blood flowing out of him a little faster. He was dead before I even had time to pull out my gun. It was definitely hard, we were talking and laughing then we see this guy and we didn't see anyone else, but obviously they were there. They didn't even try to get the drugs, no one ever paid for the crime they committed. They killed my friend, and got away with it. It's not right. Definitely not right." Liam couldn't really talk about it anymore, he hadn't thought about it in years, but the memory will always be there...

I can understand why you left. Tell me, what do you think of the general state of Meropis?! Anyone here you like or don't, particularly? Are you settling in well? You seem to have a good handle on things-yes, your carreer path hasn't been normal, but it doesn't need to be. So long as you're happy, or at least secure. Why did you choose the law-it seems to me that law ENFORCEMENT might've been a better fit?

"I don't really know yet, I hadn't really talked to anyone except an Australian guy, he was a little too nosy... Had he not been Australian I would've thought he was a spy. Even though being here, I doubt spying would do anything we are 3 million light years away from home. I always have a good handle on things Doc, its what I do. I handle things, always have and always will. My parents are both in public service, my mom is a US Senator and my dad was the Special Agent in Charge of the FBI NY Field Office. I was born to be in law and it seemed right until I got bored working in the office for a major law firm in Boston. I wanted a change, so I joined Border Patrol, and it definitely was a major change. I don't have any kids and I'm not married so I don't have to worry and I can do anything I want, that is what I decided to do. I don't regret it, but I do regret losing my partner, I know I can't change anything, but he was killed just feet away from me and I couldn't do a damn thing about it, its just messed up, that is the only thing I regret in my life."

<Tag: Dr. Roger Harrison>

[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0846
Roger's Office
Meropis

Roger finished his statement, and let Liam go again.

It was tough, I tried to do chest compression's but you know, he was shot a few dozen times too many, the only thing I was doing was getting the blood flowing out of him a little faster. He was dead before I even had time to pull out my gun. It was definitely hard, we were talking and laughing then we see this guy and we didn't see anyone else, but obviously they were there. They didn't even try to get the drugs, no one ever paid for the crime they committed. They killed my friend, and got away with it. It's not right. Definitely not right. Roger nodded thoughtfully. He'd been on the same boat-not being able to find justice for a life that needed saving.

Thank you for sharing with me. I agree that it's not right. Do you believe in God or Karma or something?! Usually, the universe has a way of righting itself-wether you call it "Divine intervention" or Karma, or simply just the power of thought, I believe that whatever Cosmic force is at work will right it for you. Though I understand that justice is very important, especially for the families. If you could find them now, would you kill them? Arrest them? Roger was curious.

Roger let him continue, telling him about his time here on Base.

I don't really know yet, I hadn't really talked to anyone except an Australian guy, he was a little too nosy... Had he not been Australian I would've thought he was a spy. Even though being here, I doubt spying would do anything we are 3 million light years away from home. I always have a good handle on things Doc, its what I do. I handle things, always have and always will. My parents are both in public service, my mom is a US Senator and my dad was the Special Agent in Charge of the FBI NY Field Office. I was born to be in law and it seemed right until I got bored working in the office for a major law firm in Boston. I wanted a change, so I joined Border Patrol, and it definitely was a major change. I don't have any kids and I'm not married so I don't have to worry and I can do anything I want, that is what I decided to do. I don't regret it, but I do regret losing my partner, I know I can't change anything, but he was killed just feet away from me and I couldn't do a damn thing about it, its just messed up, that is the only thing I regret in my life. Roger sighed.

The Aussie's ARE a strange bunch, aren't they?! Not quite British, not quite on their own, but they have a lot of national pride-I can't blame them for that. He paused before addressing the rest of Liam's statement.

Interesting past you have there. Well...you think you can't change anything, but you can. You can change the future...you say you're interested in a spy. If I were looking for a spy, I wouldn't look here-as you said, several million light years from home, and between you and I, most of the people here have far more on thier minds. However, if there IS a spy amongst us, I hope you find them. Back to changing the future...you can choose how the things you have seen and the things you WILL see shape your future. You can choose to let the death of your partner hold you back, or you can channel the pain and anger for something else. It sounds like you're doing that, and I hope you can continue. Are you single on purpose? Roger was aware that that was a personal question, but the answer would tell him more about what drove Liam.

Tag:Liam Hart.

[Liam Hart]

0847
Roger's Office
Meropis

Thank you for sharing with me. I agree that it's not right. Do you believe in God or Karma or something?! Usually, the universe has a way of righting itself-wether you call it "Divine intervention" or Karma, or simply just the power of thought, I believe that whatever Cosmic force is at work will right it for you. Though I understand that justice is very important, especially for the families. If you could find them now, would you kill them? Arrest them? Liam just looked down at the ground with his elbows on his legs.

"I wouldn't say I believe in a God, but a creator, divine being sure. We've seen some weird things in the Stargate Program, even the Ancients, I believe there are beings more powerful than them. I believe in karma, but the thing is these guys are monsters, they care about nothing and have no feelings in regards to other human beings. Justin won't know justice neither will his family, the only things there were his body and the bag we collected. We got fingerprints but the guy we busted wasn't the killer and I don't know if he worked with them or even if he knew who they were, afterall if it was about drugs they would've killed me too and grabbed the bag, but they didn't. It was more like a kidnapping than it was anything, for all I know that guy stole the drugs. If I found the animals, I would put them down, not because I want too but because they wouldn't allow themselves to be placed in an American prison, I killed people like them before, I wouldn't lose sleep over it." Liam said, maybe he didn't word it right, but the cartel guys don't care about Liam or his life so why should he care about theirs?

The Aussie's ARE a strange bunch, aren't they?! Not quite British, not quite on their own, but they have a lot of national pride-I can't blame them for that. Liam nodded, "They definitely are strange, especially that new guy, Mulholand or however you say his name. He is a little too upbeat for me and he talks a lot and is loud... Then the Decker character is also weird, he likes to twist what I say like he is trying to get me to say something I shouldn't say. But I wouldn't consider them a security risk or threat..."

Interesting past you have there. Well...you think you can't change anything, but you can. You can change the future...you say you're interested in a spy. If I were looking for a spy, I wouldn't look here-as you said, several million light years from home, and between you and I, most of the people here have far more on thier minds. However, if there IS a spy amongst us, I hope you find them. Back to changing the future...you can choose how the things you have seen and the things you WILL see shape your future. You can choose to let the death of your partner hold you back, or you can channel the pain and anger for something else. It sounds like you're doing that, and I hope you can continue. Are you single on purpose?

"I don't think I can change something that hasn't yet happened... but I do think I can shape it... true, I wouldn't think any spy would be successful here unless they were you know, Etruscan. Honestly I haven't thought about Justin in well years... I can't change anything about that, that happened long ago and well if I were able to capture the animals, I would've, but they were gone and in Mexico... they got away, but in their line of business they die all the time from rival cartels, the Mexican Marines, the Federales. Single... well let's just say I haven't found the right one yet..."

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[Dr. Roger Harrison]

0847
Roger's Office
Meropis

Roger took a few notes as Liam spoke. He mostly did this because he would lose track of what people were talking about. Some people might call it a "Senior moment," but Roger preferred to think of it as a creative brain dump. Semantics. He was slowly painting a mental picture of who Liam was-the man was clearly OK, and wouldn't need extensive services, unless he WANTED them, and seemed fairly adjusted to life in general. Roger was confident that he was no danger to anyone, including himself, so his report would simply be that Hart came and did it.

"I wouldn't say I believe in a God, but a creator, divine being sure. We've seen some weird things in the Stargate Program, even the Ancients, I believe there are beings more powerful than them. I believe in karma, but the thing is these guys are monsters, they care about nothing and have no feelings in regards to other human beings. Justin won't know justice neither will his family, the only things there were his body and the bag we collected. We got fingerprints but the guy we busted wasn't the killer and I don't know if he worked with them or even if he knew who they were, afterall if it was about drugs they would've killed me too and grabbed the bag, but they didn't. It was more like a kidnapping than it was anything, for all I know that guy stole the drugs. If I found the animals, I would put them down, not because I want too but because they wouldn't allow themselves to be placed in an American prison, I killed people like them before, I wouldn't lose sleep over it. Roger paused for a moment before replying.

That's a perfectly normal response. I don't fault or judge you for that, I simply wondered. Drugs, and the war on drugs, have cost us far more lives than anything else I can think of. I did some work for the CDC, and the Surgeon General. Meth and Heroin are the two things I worry most about as a medical professional. But I am sure you know that. What I am trying to equate here is that I understand the other side of the drug war-the ugly side that most people don't see. They only see the users, and the children of them, living in subsidized housing, often poor. But there's a bit of humanity in it, if oyu look. Don't lose sight of that, ok? He let Liam go on.

They definitely are strange, especially that new guy, Mulholand or however you say his name. He is a little too upbeat for me and he talks a lot and is loud... Then the Decker character is also weird, he likes to twist what I say like he is trying to get me to say something I shouldn't say. But I wouldn't consider them a security risk or threat... Roger reserved comment-there wasn't anything to say. Roger hadn't met the other man except in passing, and so had no opinion as to his character. Even if he did, he wouldn't tell Liam.

I don't think I can change something that hasn't yet happened... but I do think I can shape it... true, I wouldn't think any spy would be successful here unless they were you know, Etruscan. Honestly I haven't thought about Justin in well years... I can't change anything about that, that happened long ago and well if I were able to capture the animals, I would've, but they were gone and in Mexico... they got away, but in their line of business they die all the time from rival cartels, the Mexican Marines, the Federales. Single... well let's just say I haven't found the right one yet...

This last sentence helped him to fill in some of the missing pieces. Good. So far, Liam Hart was, to Roger, a man with a purpose, and decently upstanding, with no hints of neurosis or other major mental health problems. A solid addition to the Meropis staff.

I DO understand. Look, I usually recommend that people come and see regularly, but I think you have a good handle on things. You've seen some terrible things, but oyu don't let it consume you. That's commendable. By changing the future, I didn't necessarily mean in the literal sense-as I said, I think you're making the right choices to make a healthy lifestyle for yourself. I always ask people about thier martial status if I don't already know because it helps me to focus any treatment-some people might need extra support in that area, but I understand. There is plenty of time if you choose to have a mate. Some of us don't find that until later in life. He stopped speaking to let Liam digest his words.

Is there anything else you'd like to discuss?! I have the whole day blocked. But if not, you are free to go. I don't think you'll need a regular course of sessions, but my door is always open, even if oyu just need a quiet place to nap. I am always here, and always on call. It was true-most days, he just slept in his office because he'd fall asleep working. It was a bad habit.

Tag:Liam Hart.

[Liam Hart]

0847
Roger's Office
Meropis

That's a perfectly normal response. I don't fault or judge you for that, I simply wondered. Drugs, and the war on drugs, have cost us far more lives than anything else I can think of. I did some work for the CDC, and the Surgeon General. Meth and Heroin are the two things I worry most about as a medical professional. But I am sure you know that. What I am trying to equate here is that I understand the other side of the drug war-the ugly side that most people don't see. They only see the users, and the children of them, living in subsidized housing, often poor. But there's a bit of humanity in it, if oyu look. Don't lose sight of that, ok? Liam nodded, it made sense.

"The war on drugs takes a lot more lives than the war on terror... the drug kingpins only care about money, money and power. The more money they make the more supply the can create, the more they can expand, the more power they get. Obviously the war on drugs is really the war on money, that is what drives these organizations. Which is obviously why we target money more than the drugs themselves. These guys are morons, they have their people in other countries ship the money back down to them and they use it at their home base when they should be using it in these other countries to fund them there, but these guys aren't bright, which is always good. These guys are savages though..." Liam said leaving it there, he could go on for hours or even days.

I DO understand. Look, I usually recommend that people come and see regularly, but I think you have a good handle on things. You've seen some terrible things, but oyu don't let it consume you. That's commendable. By changing the future, I didn't necessarily mean in the literal sense-as I said, I think you're making the right choices to make a healthy lifestyle for yourself. I always ask people about thier martial status if I don't already know because it helps me to focus any treatment-some people might need extra support in that area, but I understand. There is plenty of time if you choose to have a mate. Some of us don't find that until later in life. Is there anything else you'd like to discuss?! I have the whole day blocked. But if not, you are free to go. I don't think you'll need a regular course of sessions, but my door is always open, even if oyu just need a quiet place to nap. I am always here, and always on call.

"Like I said doc, I handle things. My parents were busy and important people, they were definitely home and its not like I was being neglected, but I learned to be independent and to that end I handled things on my own, my parents held me accountable, and I am the man I am today, because of that. Of course not everyone has a US Congresswoman turned US Senator as a mother and a Senior FBI Agent as a father but they were smart and good people, I am one of the lucky ones. I am good, doc. I thought I was good and as you said I am, I only came because of Kelly... the Secretary of the Air Force ordered me too. Thanks for your time, Doc." Liam said as he stood and shook hands with the Doctor as he left the room and went about his business.

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